Well another Academy Award show gone by and another monday in the works. It should be a very interesting day considering the drama that has been working up amongst some of the crew. Not me, no..I just sit back and watch it. Hopefully things will calm down soon but it's started so early in the season I don't think it's going to go away.

It's about 80 degrees in the apartment as the little bit of sunshine that we get in a day creeps through our windows while for some reason the heat is on. The poor boy keeps getting up to adjust the fan that we've had going all winter. While we've been sweltering in anywhere from 60-80 degree heat all winter, next door has been like an ice box. Atleast I'm getting myself ready for the summer ahead. On top of so many other things, I am very worried about the heat here in the summer and how I'm going to handle it.

Speaking of being worried about the summer, people are starting to get cast and offered contracts at the colony. This means that they're calling our house a lot. It's starting to get on my nerves as I am trying to think of anything other than the summer. Where will I work? How will I live without the beach outside my door? How will I deal without the boy for 4 months? Will I get a steady paycheck? Did I make the right decision? Do I even have a choice?

I guess some part of me still thought I might return. Yesterday it hit like a ton of bricks...Im staying here.