Today will be my first full day at work without the boy. I don't know how Im going to handle it yet. I had a 'bout of sadness last night but quickly got myself over it. There's not much point in being sad except to make me feel worse. All I know is 4 months is going to be a really long time and I have to get whatever weirdness Im feeling out of my system now so I can try and enjoy a nice summer to myself. That's the whole point right? Get a little me time? He gets a little he time. I'll still talk to him daily and Im sure we'll make a couple visits here and there if we can afford it. These are the things I tell myself when I start to feel down. There's no point, I'll see him soon. *sigh*

All I need to do is make it through today at work. That'll be my first big hump.